Some more time to heal

I dreamt of growing old together
And together we’d turn grey
But with every passing day
Your memory fades away.

I felt darkness was there forever
There forever from dusk to dawn
We stood still, while you were gone
When life became a game of pawns.

I find it hard to recall, hard to remember
To remember, what life once was about
I want to scream, I want to shout
The tortured words, just won’t come out.

I should maybe surrender
Just surrender and let my heart yearn
I should maybe wait for my turn
Before I let the flame burn.

My heart still beats while you are not here
I still turn around when I feel you near
My broken existence, feel empty yet real
It will take time, some more time to heal.